Friday, December 26, 2008

A thought on Motherhood

"I cannot forget my mother.
She is my bridge.
When I needed to get
across, she steadied herself
long enough for me
to run across safely."

I don’t know who wrote this quote but it has become significant to me. Our children need countless bridges throughout their lives. It is up to us, as parents, to be that bridge for we alone have the commitment, insight, and strength needed by our individual children. Unfortunately, far too many mothers refuse to be a bridge. Being a bridge is not easy; have you ever tried to physically be a bridge for someone? The effort is the same to be a “bridge mother”, though mothers do not only play the role of a physical bridge (pregnancy, childbirth, etc.) but also mental, emotional, and spiritual bridges. Though some women honestly do not know the desperate need for or how to be a bridge mother, sadly, many other women choose not to be a bridge mother.

"The commonest fallacy among women
is that simply having children makes them a mother –
which is as absurd as believing that having a piano
makes one a musician."

Most all of what we do as mothers is being a bridge for our children. Pregnancy and childbirth are the first bridges. They are not easy in any way. Perhaps we should see this time as training for motherhood, for to be the mother our children need, that “suffering”, that marathon effort and patience must never end.

Motherhood is not for the faint of heart. We are career warriors. Our battles are no less difficult than those fought on the battlefield, and we fight these battles for a lifetime. I think that you may think that this sounds somewhat cliché… but if you doubt the truth of this, try daily to make a hundred times the choice to do what is best for your children instead of what would be comfortable or even best for yourself. You will quickly find that one’s own self-focus and self-righteousness, self-indulgence and laziness, fear and insecurities, discomfort and pain are some of the most wearisome, relentless and powerful foes ever faced on earth. Attempt to die tiny deaths dozens of times a day, every day, every month, every year for decades and you will not suppose to call motherhood insignificant or dishonorable or second-rate.
I hope that more women will choose to seize the strength God has given them (He offers all the needed strength to every woman) and begin a new legacy of mothering in their own families.
As my mother did for me,
I will steady myself and be a
Bridge Mother.
“She has a more influential and powerful role than any political, military, religious or educational figure. Her words are never fully forgotten. For good or for ill, a mother’s impact is permanent. A child’s mother is arguably the most influential figure in his or her life, giving credence to the old adage: the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world.”
"Mother—in this consists the glory and
the most precious ornament of woman."
-Martin Luther.
"I cannot name myself as one
Who never goes astray,
Who never stumbles on the road,
Or leaves the hallowed way.
But when I know that baby feet
Will follow where I’ve trod,
I walk with care that they too may walk
That road that leads to God."
-Margaret Fishback Powers
"The Sweetest sounds to mortals given are heard in
Mother, Home, and Heaven."
-W.G. Brown

The bravest battle that ever was fought!
Shall I tell you where and when?
On the maps of the world you will find it not;
'Twas fought by the mothers of men.

Nay not with the cannon of battle-shot,
With a sword or noble pen;
Nay, not with eloquent words or thought
From mouth of wonderful men!

But deep in a walled-up woman's heart -
Of a woman that would not yield,
But bravely, silently bore her part -
Lo, there is the battlefield!

No marshalling troops, no bivouac song,
No banner to gleam and wave;
But oh! those battles, they last so long -
From babyhood to the grave.

Yet, faithful still as a bridge of stars,
She fights in her walled-up town -
Fights on and on in her endless wars,
Then silent, unseen, goes down.

Oh, ye with banners and battle-shot,
And soldiers to shout and praise!
I tell you the kingliest victories fought
Were fought in those silent ways.

O spotless woman in a world of shame,
With splendid and silent scorn,
Go back to God as white as you came -
The Kingliest warrior born!

- Joaquin Miller (1839-1913)

Monday, December 15, 2008

December Day

It has been 10 degrees or less for the last few days, and we have about 8 inches of snow now with drifts. When Winter decided to come, it really came. I'm not looking forward to seeing htis month's heating bill....

Hemi has been staying inside most of the time now because of the cold. He had been banished outside this summer because he kept going potty in the house, but luckily (for him) he hasn't had any accidents so far....

About a week or so ago, Cienna began rolling over from her tummy to her back. She also loves to blow bubbles. She often ends up with a little foam goatee. This new past time combined with teething has got us going through bibs like crazy. She's not happy leaning back on things anymore, she's got to be sitting up. And she's discovered rattles and her toes. Poor girl has been really teething hard this week. She's not a happy camper.

I looked around online for ideas of things to do with Cedric to keep him busy this winter, and I found this web page that has a bunch of great "Rainy Day Activites for Toddlers" that just use things around the house and that you can do with only 1 toddler (my situation).( I've been trying to do at least one a day with him. He has a tendency to get pretty destructive (not breaking, just moving and emptying everything) when he's bored.

Here is a picture I took just today. I love it....

Cedric and Cienna took a bath together for the first time a few days ago.

This is my favorite.

Watching the rubber ducky.

Look at all those rolls on that chubby baby!

He wasn't actually sticking out his tongue.... I caught it at the perfect second!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Lots of snow!

Six inches of snow has fallen here since yesterday morning. Cedric is having a great time playing out there. He spent a half hour out there this morning playing while Tim shoveled snow and came in with some slight frostbite on his cheeks. He didn't complain about it though and it cleared up within an hour.

Cienna is majorly teething this last week. There have been some days that I ended up using at least a dozen bibs on her. Poor girl.

I really like the idea of sharing my to-do list for the day so here is mine. I hardly ever get to complete the list every day and often complete just half a task at a time... My list is usually extra long because I never know which tasks will actually fit into the day. That has been one of the biggest adjustments of being a mom. My mind has to change subjects and tasks very quickly, which has been rather annoying. Anyway here it is (doesn't include any of the child tasks of course :):

Clean bathroom
Change bed sheets
2nd draft of Christmas letter
Balance checkbook
Wrap some more Christmas gifts
Pet Hemi for at least 5 minutes (I have to schedule this :)
Sweep kitchen

We decorated for Christmas last weekend. Here are a couple pictures of the kids decorating:

Cienna reaching for an ornament that she later got to put on the tree (with Daddy's help of course).

Cedric holding a 50-year-old ornament that came from my Dad's side of the family.

Cienna and Daddy admiring the tree.

Cedric and his "camera smile". He's not very good at making it look natural yet. :)

Here's a better smile!
Here are a series of pictures that we took of Cienna last week in her church dress. I love the pictures so I posted all of them.

We are gathering information for our adoption application, which we will be sending out next week. We have heard the call to adopt for over 2 years and feel God prompting us to begin now. For sure, this is a "stepping out of the boat" experience. We don't have any sort of "floatation device", but we are confident of God's call and will trust His provision. One of my favorite qutoes is, "God will often call you to do something that without Him you can not and without you He will not." We are going to be adopting an infant from Ethiopia through Holt International.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Day Before Thanksgiving

Cedric is sleeping in his toddler bed now. It wasn’t too hard to switch him over really. But it’s pretty neat that he’s had another “graduation”. Now the crib is freed up for Cienna. I think it’ll be a while until we switch her over though. There’s really no hurry to move her out of the co-sleeper by our bed as long as she’s happy in it.

I’ve long enjoyed to crochet but never got to do much of it; however, I recently found a ministry that ships homemade afgans to orphanages in 20 different countries. They send you a pattern to follow and you get to pick the colors. When I finish the afgan(s), I’ll send it to the ministry headquarters and they’ll ship it off in a backpack filled also with a teddy bear and school supplies. I’ve begun my first afgan, and it’s really satisfying knowing that I’m creating something that will bring comfort to an orphan. For more info about it, check out this blog about the Jabez Blanket Ministry: I'll post a picture of the afgan when I'm finished.

Cienna has not been sleeping well during the day since she’s begun teething. I’m having a hard time getting anything done. She does well in the sling but it’s difficult to bend over with her strapped to my front, and she doesn’t do well on my back yet because she keeps losing her binki. It’s surprising how much work around the house includes bending over….

Cedric is such a goof.

I love this picture of them together. Cedric really does love his little sister. He loves to lean in to coo and smile at her, calling her "baby girl" and "sweetie" and in a sing song voice.

This first video is of Cienna “talking”. She is really reactive to someone looking in her face and talking, she’ll start talking right back.

This next one show’s a quick smile and more “talking” from Cienna and a big one from Cedric.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Pics & Videos

Cienna has begun teething for sure this past week. She's drooling like crazy, and her fussiness usually responds well to Hylands Teething Tablets. She has become so smiley this past week as well. Finally! :) I'll try to get a video of it sometime. I've been meaning to post more recent pictures of her as well, so there'll be more picture blogs soon.

In the mean time, here are some misc. pictures taken recently. The first is of Mom, Cienna, Cedric & Cian on the 8th. That's Cedric's camera smile. He always squints his eyes, thinking that he's actually smiling. :)

Cian and Cienna napping together. They actually stayed like that for a while.

Another nap.

Daddy and Cedric late one night at Josh & Amber's.

Cedric & Cienna at our house.

While we were at Josh and Amber's they got to play their Rock Band game. Cedric was the star singer for a while.

Here is a video of Cedric "sharing" Cienna's binky. Silly goose.

Just tonight I had both Cedric and Cienna on my lap, heads leaning on my shoulders and facing eachother, and then Cedric swapped binkys with Cienna. She had his and he had hers. It was rather precious.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

November Musings

Cienna had her 2-month checkup a couple weeks ago and she was in the upper 90% for everything: her height, weight, and head. She was 13 lbs. 14 oz.! :) I guess I was always in the 90% as an infant too, so it's not surprising for Cienna.
I think Cienna is going to keep her dark grey-blue eyes, just like mine. They're definitely not as ambiguous as Cedric's were at this age. Cedric's finally turned light brown (some call it hazel or greenish brown) at 12 months. I think it's neat that Cedric has my hair and Tim's eyes, while Cienna has Tim's hair and my eyes. :)

Here is Cienna's first camera-captured smiles:

This picture was taken a few nights ago. Cedric got out these casserole dishes and fed his "friends" dinner:

Here is a picture of Tim in his LaFou getup. It looked great on stage!:

Well, I am bummed that Obama won. Not surprised but bummed. I am concerned about the drift away from freedom in healthcare and education choices, as well as having a militarily inexperienced Commander-In-Chief who is more concerned with the popular vote than military strategy and integrity. What bothers me the most however is his plan to sign the FOCA (Freedom of Choice Act) which will wipe away all restrictions and safe-guards on abortion including parental notification, partial birth abortion, and the ability of individual states of regulating abortion within their borders. I am all for women's rights; however, there is never a time when it is appropriate to take another person's life simply because they are a huge and painful inconvenience or embarassment to you. This is human life we are talking about, people. There is no other honest way of looking at it. Abortion is not the best choice.

Reality Check:

Partial Birth Abortion

Monday, October 6, 2008


I’m not sure how to start this blog so I’ll just right in with the newsy stuff:

Tim’s last Beauty and The Beast performance was last Saturday night. He did awesome! I really enjoyed watching him. I was able to see it both Saturday night performances. I’m so thankful Mom and I went that first Saturday because Cienna was not feeling well the second Saturday and I spent 2/3 of the play with her in the lobby. Cedric went to the 2nd Saturday and was enthralled. I wasn’t sure he would be interested for the entire 2-1/2 hour play but he was. Whenever Tim left the stage he would ask, “Daddy go?” During intermission, Grammy took him down to look in the orchestra pit and the first thing he saw was a plate of cookies on the piano. He pointed and said, “Cookies, cookie,” and the musicians handed him up one. It was cute. I had fun being introduced to several of Tim’s fellow cast members. Tim made such a good impression on them. They kept telling, “Your husband is the nicest guy!”, etc. *proud to be his wife* Tim is so talented and loves doing this sort of thing. It was really tough with all the play practices but it was worth it so that Tim could enjoy himself doing this. He’ll probably do another one in a couple years. He’s hoping for the King and I and to play the king or Aladin in which he’d want to be the jeanie. :)

We have gotten serious about potty training Cedric this past week. He’s only wearing diapers when he sleeps and we’re not confident enough yet to go in public without them. We’re almost there though! He is doing great! He was definitely ready. He was showing signs of being ready and I had to admit to myself that the only reason he wasn’t potty trained was because I wasn’t putting the effort into it. We had consciously decided to wait to get serious about potty training until after Cienna arrived, and since she’s been here two months now, we figured it was high time to do it. He’s having a bit of trouble forgetting he doesn’t have a diaper on when he wears just pants and undies, but he is totally accident free when he goes pant-less around the house. He’s even gone #2 in the potty chair, which can be a big deal for toddlers. He’s growing so fast!

Cienna is doing great. She is still a very content baby which I’m SOOOO thankful for. We’ve switched to cloth diapers except when we go in public and at night. I’m really enjoying it. It’s just very satisfying knowing that I’m reducing garbage, saving money, and reducing her exposure to chemicals in paper diapers.

I am doing well. Working on losing the pregnancy weight. I’m also in real need of a hobby or time of my own or something. I think I may try to go tanning and drink a mocha with a good book once a week by myself. That sounds nice….

Here are some pictures I’ve accumulated. I’ll post a couple of Tim in the play when I get some online.

Cedric asked me to put "Baby Doll" on his back so he could be like Momma and Cienna. :)

Isn't comparison so cute? Cedric is 9 months in the first picture and 2 years old in the second.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008


I still have a bit of a cough, but we are basically over our cold. Cienna never showed the classic symptoms, though she was pretty fussy for a few days. Tim ended up taking a few days off work to take care of us. I was so thankful!

We are down to that last few weeks before opening night of Beauty and The Beast. Unfortunately, practices are scheduled 6 days a week until then. As long as we don't get another cold the kids and I will hang in there, but we really miss seeing daddy like we're used to. Tim's having a blast! I really look forward to seeing the play. I hope that Cedric will be able to recognize his daddy up there on stage. Though I hear, as LaFou, he gets beat up and pushed around a lot... I hope it doesn't upset or confuse Cedric! Hmmm....

This is my favorite time of year. I dislike that it means Winter is right around the corner, but I really love Fall. The colors are the best, and it's just the right temperature. Things get back down to a routine, and it just gets cozier (sp?).

Both Cienna and Cedric are doing really well. Cedric is very ready for potty training, so we're working more on that. Cienna fits really well into a routine, that is, it's not impossible to keep somewhat of a schedule. We're getting better at this 2-child thing, I think. :) I am so thankful that she is a good sleeper!

It has been tough getting used to a different level of disorder around the house. I knew that this would bug me, but it doesn't make it any easier when it's actually happening. I need to thoroughly shift my concept of a "successful" day to simply meeting the physical and emotional needs of my kids. Lindy, it's okay just to sit and cuddle with your babies amidst a torn apart house.... And it's okay for Ced to stay up until 9pm because Cienna needs you to rock her to sleep instead.... It's okay if he never got a bath tonight.... Cedric can play by himself for the afternoon.... It's okay to plug in the cartoons more than once today............................ *sigh*

Anyway.... :) Here are a couple pictures. I thought the video was kind of cute, nothing spectacular, just cute. But maybe only to a mother's eyes. :)

Friday, September 12, 2008


Cienna had her 2-week appointment on Wednesday and all is well. She had grown an inch and gained nearly 2 pounds to weigh 9 pounds 8 ounces! She was 7 pounds 12 ounces at birth. She's a great nurser, needless to say. :)

Monday evening was momentous for us. Tim helped Cedric go potty in his potty chair for the first time, while I was changing Cienna and discovered her umbilical cord had fallen off. Such milestones. Tim and I have such fun with these things. :)

Here are some of my favorite pictures we've taken recently:

It has been tough adjusting to 2 children. I feel bad not being able to give 100% of my attention to either of them. Oh, sometimes I can, but not like I want to. I know it's how God designed the family and that it teaches children that they are not the center of the universe (a valuable lesson). But it hurts to see Cedric struggling with it and to have to leave Cienna to cry once in a while. I don't want either of them to be lonely and feel insecure. I guess pain is what causes growth, and I need to let Cedric feel it. Change is never easy but it is good. Especially this kind of change.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Picure comparisons

Here are a couple picture comparisons with Cienna. It's fun to see who she looks like. I think she looks most like Tim but with a feminine flare. :) First comparison is of Cedric and Cienna and the second shows what I think is a resemblence to Tim's mom whose middle name is also "Yvonne". Check it out:
Cedric - 4 days old

Cienna - 3 days old


Cienna - 18 hours old

Diane - Tim's Mom